Just A Closer Walk

This week has been one of those weeks. You know, those weeks that you are just frustrated and feeling a little tired and weary with the status of your day to day struggles. I have felt a bit frazzled with my migraines and discombobulated with my back hurting more than I would desire it to which spurs on the migraines even more and quite frankly I have just felt sorry for myself. Generally, I try to do my very best not to complain about it to anyone besides my momma and my husband. Sometimes I am better at that than others, it just depends on my attitude.

But this week, I haven't been in the best of spirits. This week I have felt all alone. I have felt pain for my daughter. I have been frustrated for her. When we added more therapy to her already busy schedule it was because she isn't catching up...or wrather her skills aren't picking up as quickly so we are hoping that with more therapy that they will. I know that it is what is best for her and I love her therapists as does she....but 5 therapy sessions a week for her, and next month is the EEG appointment to see if she remains in remission, and then in two weeks we are going to see an opthamologist because of her esotropia...which could lead to glasses, a patch over her eye, or surgery. In July we go to the pediatric cardiologist about her heart murmur again to discuss our options...we can do the open heart surgery at age 2 or 3. I have just had a great deal on my mind this week about upcoming things with my baby. I have felt overwhelmed for her. She understands communication at an 11-12 month old level but she can only communicate back at a 6 month old level (which is really not at all...which is why she gets so fussy because she is frustrated)....so I feel like she understands what is going on and does she get frustrated because there are things that she can't do and she wants to do? I think that is what bothers me the most as her mom? My dreams for Kate are for her to her best and nothing more. I love her strong willed personality and I believe that will help her to succeed and do well.

I had to remind myself of one of my favorite hymns to get through today:

Through this world of toil and snares,

If I falter, Lord, who cares?

Who with me my burden shares?

None but Thee, dear Lord, none but Thee.

Just a closer walk with Thee,

Grant it, Jesus, is my plea,

Daily walking close to Thee,

Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.

Anyways, when I finally took the time to sit and think about those words I realized that I didn't need my hubbs or my mom or a friend to talk to or pick up the phone and call me to chat and spill my heart out to...I had Jesus. I had him to talk to and lean on and with all that is going on and everything that is coming up, all will be okay and He will bring us through it. He shares our burdens. I like the line in the song that says 'None but thee', because it so true. God truly is the only one who really is alongside you through things...others may not look at what I am going through as a burden or even as a difficult situation...but I do and therefore God does.

I hope that if you are in a difficult situation you'll remember to take it to Jesus....He shares your burdens.