Second Class...Looking Glass

Last night was our second class and it was the night that we discussed infertility and loss. As I sat there and listened to some of the stories and saw a couple weeping over the obvious loss of a child they had conceived, another couple that had lost a child due to a tubal pregnancy, sitting right beside me someone who had battled cancer....and then I knew our story of trying to get pregnant for several years but choosing not to go the route of IUI's or In Vitro....all I could do was sit and listen and thank the Lord for our daughter. When I felt the urge to tell our story I did. I left out the part about not getting Kelsey....I shared the HOPE. I guess I felt like all of these couples had gone through so much, why burden them with one more unfortunate story of loss in the adoption world? I told them the miracle story of Bug....and every time that I tell her story it is more miraculous just as she is.

These classes are long, and taxing...but so informative. When it comes time for our interviews with the social workers that work for Agape...that is when we will share our story of loss, because that is who will be able to listen with ears that are able to hear without fear or worry. Boy and I have also talked so much about adoption in that we feel like it isn't a second rate choice for us. This isn't something we are doing in place of getting pregnant. For us, pregnancy is still an option for us. We were never told we couldn't get pregnant...it's just not that important to us to TRY that hard....when there are precious lives waiting to call us mommy and daddy out there.

I guess the point of the class last night was to bring closure for those couples who hadn't worked out their feelings of loss of their infertility. Obviously, for Boy and I...we have. I do believe that if the Lord wants us to have biological children He will make that happen...but we are both perfectly content if that does not happen. Adoption is exciting...there is so much anticipation in waiting for the call, not knowing if it's a boy or girl...because you really can't find out until they come!!! You want this child so desperately because you are willing to go through so much paperwork, physicals, classes, background checks, providing references, fingerprints, proving your financials....etc. All in the name of loving a child. Those of you who are in the adoption process, or who have adopted can relate to this....there is no way to explain the experience! Some days you cry, some days you are happy....especially if you are a woman!

Anyways...please stay tuned for the roller coaster that will be our next little one!