His Calling

So, today I'm going to share my heart...and be honest and open with where we are in our adoption journey.

When we began the process of adoption my sweet husband thought we'd go to Korea or China...but God had other plans...amazing plans. We went through the foster care system and adopted our Bug. Our little miracle, pure and simple. We were so very blessed to have an incredible caseworker, Jennifer who is now one of my closest and dearest friends. Her heart for Bug to have loving, godly parents...well she is a gem in the system.

We jump forward a little bit in our timeline and experience the pure agony of a failed adoption...at the time we were bitter and angry at the system, at God and ourselves truthfully for allowing our hearts to fall in love with a little girl who would not be ours afterall. Oh, how God CLEARLY knows what is best for us. He has the master plan and knew that this little girl was not meant for us...He had another little girl in mind.

We were ready to be parents again and left the foster care system to adopt privately through an agency. Agape. Incredible people and the most amazing caseworker once again. Claire was a gift from heaven...when we got the call for Doo there many unknown factors that she consistently reassured me of and that it was a process. 5 1/2 weeks after the call we picked up our daughter days before Christmas. Sheer joy is what we felt!

In February of last year I attended the Created for Care retreat in Georgia for adoptive mothers (wow, what an incredible time of worship)...my heart began to stir after listening to two women talk about special needs adoption. I already know what it is to be the mother of a child with special needs and felt like God knew that I could do it again with His help. I began praying about it and have continued to do so constantly.

So...that brings us to now. My hubbs and I are praying fervently about what the Lord's next step is. We are so drawn to Korea and feel that is the Lord's plan for our life and our journey of adoption...but there are once again doubt's if this is OUR plan and OUR hearts being broken for waiting children in many orphanages across the world or if it is TRULY His mighty plan. The sweetest thing is that this would make a full circle on our adoption journey...back to where my husband thought we would go for our child...however, we just followed His plan and we need to hear from the Lord if that will take us to Korea? I don't know for certain.

I am certain that God is at work in our lives...we can see His hand everywhere. We are prayerful about what He will call us to do...and we ask that you join us in prayer for what that plan looks like and when we will go.

The one thing I do know is this...we will be obedient to His call. We will be obedient no matter what others think or say. We will be obedient and love another child like He loves them. We will be obedient with the two treasures He has already given us and KNOW that He will make His plan very clear to us.

So, here I am sharing my heart...my heart for a child that I don't know yet and I don't know when the time will come to go to Korea. I am just saying that we will be obedient to whatever His desire for our family is.

Much love,
~K