Don't Try So Hard

It's been a long day. Long week. Long two weeks. I officially broke and straight up lost my mind today. If you find marbles rolling along Memorial or Broad...they're mine.

Life has been hard. It's been wearing me down. Nothing will strike a momma down faster than something going on with their kiddo. It's just been an avalanche of hard and sorrow and tough agonizing days with Bug. I wanted to take time today to really hash things out with God. To tell him that I feel inadequate as a wife and mom. Poor out my miseries. Can't get myself to just TRUST HIM in all things--even though He proves Himself over and OVER and over again.

I wanted to tell him all that is going on as if He didn't already know. Through tears I told Him I was tired of trying. Trying to hold it all together. Trying to be all the things I think I'm supposed to be. All the things that I think I am needed to be. I am truly a beautiful, hot and crazy mess. Guess what? He loves beautiful, hot and crazy messes!

Fighting the ugly cry--I just sat there and these words were placed into my head, "Love is trying to tell you...don't try so hard."  They are lyrics. A song I haven't heard or listened to in forever...God brought to the forefront of my mind. You need to hear this too. You are beautiful and wonderfully made. I tell momma's, friends and sisters this all the time...but I needed God to tell me that in His own sweet way today. I call those things 'God-winks'. When it's almost like He has His hand on your chin and ever so gently lifts your eyes towards Him.

I need not try so hard. I can't earn anything from Christ. He is my God through it all--all the giving and taking away. His grace is free and it is enough. He is OVER IT ALL. Therefore I need not try to find perfection as a mom, as a wife or friend. I am better off to just remember that He is mine and I am His. Don't try so hard, friends.

Love and prayers, friends...He is enough. For you and for me. His grace covers it all. Walk in that truth.