No Matter What

So, over the holiday weekend my hubbs and I had a good chance to talk about the future of our family. We discussed our plans for the adoption and then after our long and quite personal discussion I began to realize just how much of "the plan" was our plan and not His.

We want to adopt again, and we know that the Lord is calling us to do so. It's just that we keep wanting to push the envelope and get the process started...and that has GOD nowhere in it. With our first two adoptions, they practically fell into place because God had ordained them.

The difficult part of this is realizing that although I may long to go to Korea...there have been many things in my life that I felt sure were my hearts desire and it isn't what the Lord gave me...I received even better!

Isaiah 55:8-9 says,"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." His ways are HIGHER. What a wonderful thing to realize. I've been frustrated for the past few weeks trying to figure out when we would adopt, start paperwork, get the fundraising started...and the thing that clicked for me is that in following God's plan you do have moments of fear, frustration and even perhaps agony over a decision, but He make His plan very clear.

It isn't my job to determine all of the plans, it isn't even my job to decide where and when on the journey to our next little one. He knows the face of our next child and we need to stop worrying, debating and dwelling on it. We are open to whatever the Lord is going to do in our family...we've followed Him for the first two adoptions and what a ride it has been! Why would we try to make our own way this time around? We are going to continue to enjoy our two girls that we have been blessed with and WAIT for Him to fully reveal His plan.

None of this is to say we won't be adopting from Korea...but what if we have had our minds and specifically hearts focused on the adoption and not on what GOD has intended for our family. What if He has another child in His plan somewhere else? I don't want to "edit" His plan for our family...I want the authentic plan. One thing we know is that God has called us to adoption and we are learning day by day that He will call us to go wherever we are to go and no matter what we will follow. We need to WAIT on Him, listen to Him, spend time with Him to know the future of our family.

No matter what the plan looks like...He truly is the author of the story and I don't want to mess up what He has planned.

Much love,
~K