Break our hearts...

Break our hearts, Lord. That is my prayer for this blogpost.Indifference. I believe that there is a large break between indifference and actual oblivion to a subject matter. So many times when I begin discussing adoption, orphan care and special needs adoption with people...there eyes begin to glaze over with either a lack of interest or information overload. Honestly, I can see where they might be coming from. Not everyone is directed for special needs adoption. Not everyone has a passion for adoption. However, we are all called to chase after Him...and HE is passionate about the orphan. Obviously we are passionate about adoption, however, we weren't specifically going toward special needs. We were open to whatever God called us to and whatever child came into our home...that first sweet and precious child just happened to have several severe special needs. She is astounding and has changed our lives...both of my girls have. I know that this third sweet child will be the child that God knew needed to be placed in our home.  God has molded me into someone whose heart is after what His heart is after and He continually has to remind me to be of that mindset.  I can so quickly loose my way in the daily routines and the emotional roller coaster of being a mother.

I say all of that to tell you that I recently read a post on one of my favorite blogs No Greater Joy Mom where I read the most gut-wrenching truth about what happens to children in other countries with disabilities that are greater and some that are just like Kate.  The word that is used is transferred.  It happens at the age of 4 and 5.  In other words it means they are being sent to an institution.  I can't do this blog justice and I simply won't even try...but I read it in tears all along thinking that my daughter would be included in this group of children had she lived in another country and not been adopted.  It tore me up just thinking about this daughter of mine whose has so much love and laughter to give to have experienced that kind of life.  I knew in my heart while reading that there were tons of children just like her experiencing the most horrific life. EVERY single child deserves love...but honestly while reading this blog I just felt sick and wanted dignity, safety, food, warm beds, a sense of security...I wanted to cradle them in my arms.  I prayed that the Father was cradling them in His.

This is why I believe there is a great divide between indifference and oblivion.  Many people truly don't know what is happening all over the world on a daily basis.  Getting this out and discussed and the truth out there is the first step to change for children.  Proverbs 24:12, Once our eyes are opened we cannot pretend we do not know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls knows we know and holds us responsible to act.  I know that God's heart is breaking for these children and He clearly calls us to care for them. We have a responsibility to ACT.

I am not a perfect.  I continually break down and become overwhelmed and sometimes the load is more than I feel I can handle...but then I come back to the fact that God WILL GIVE me more than I can handle...every single day...but He comes alongside of me to walk me through it and allows me to do whatever HE calls me to do.  He knows that I see what breaks His heart, I see these precious children and long to help and He knows that you see it too...He will always give us what we need to do His will.

Much love,
~K